Thursday, October 14, 2004
jUz beComE "bEtter" sIa.. n0w mE n daNiel (bOx) reAi dUn nEed bEcOme fRieNd lE sIa..i dUn reAli wAn cAre lEh..He dUn wAn..i aNythIng lOrz.. i aLwAy sAe i dUn wAn mAke uNtil sO jIa lAt tHat fRieNds aLSo cAnt bE uNtiL sIaNz..dUn wAn gIve a imPreSsion tAt i sEem tO "crAve" tO bE hIs fRieNd uNtil sO pAthetIc sIa.. tAt wHAt i fEel lOrz..aLwAy like tAt uNtil i fEel aBit thIck sKinNed..pEople duN wAn u As fRieNd, wHy sO maKe yRself lOok tAt baD..eSpecially after reaDing hiS bLog..maKe mE fEel tAt mOre..tHen mAKe mE fEel mOre trUe oN thE"i And hIm reAli cAnnot" thEory .. hE wAn thiNk tAt cHIldiSh ( whIch i thiNk it cHildiSh)..dUn haB hiS reSult tHen dUN bE fRieNds..bE it... i wont cAre leH..bEcoz oF hIm caUse sO mAny prOblem bEtwEen him aNd mE..i dUn wAn bEcoZ oF sUch eXternaL thIng stRain relAtionShip leH.. nOt woRth it..
sEem lIke mY woRds nOw V heArtlEss..mAybe..i think sO..bUt i reAli cAnt sEttle thIs thIng..aNd it kEep oN dRagging duNo lIke sO mAny mOnths leH..hOpe to eNds it peAcefUl But it haB to eNd in thE haRd wAy..fIne.. i oK wiF it..mOreoVer... i dUn reAli truSt gUy woRds..wIthin neXt fEw mOnthS..hE will bE oK leH..wOnt bE iN sUch a sOrrow sTate leH..gUy cAn sAe tAt tHeir heArt 4 u wont chAnge..bUt..aS tiMe pASsed.. cAn aLreAdy hear aBout theIr new gF...nEw cRush..all tat..mAybe sEen tOo mAny bAd eXamPle leH, tAt why haRd to tRust gUy wOrds...a thE sWeet tAlks...gEtting a sO fAke..
maYbe reAli juZ siMply hE reAli Hurt bY mE aLot thRough theSe mOnths.. bUt reaLI..I dUn bElieve wHat u Put iN.. u wAN pEople to reTurn wAt u pUt oUt..Not aLL pEople aRe lIke Tat.. i sEen pEople whO reAli dO thiNg wIthout eXpecting things in reTurn..Not aLl peOPle will dO thiNgs fOr MotIve.. mAYbe cAn sAe reAli i dUn uNdersTand thE paIn hE iS gOIng thRough.. bUt reAli..why cAnt u put doWn..aNd moVe fOrward..it iS haRd..bUt juZ tat u wAn to Move oN..aNd remInd iN tat sTate aNot..
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