Sunday, November 07, 2004
haZi..pRoblEm aFter pRobleMs.. aFter i tEll my dEciSion to jaNz.. bIg prOBlem haPpen stRaight after tat..hE gOt reAl uPSet..tat hE wAna eNd.. mM.. i duN wAn.. bEcoZ nOw.. i kNOw wAt i wAn..anD bEcoz iTs jUz miSunderstAnding aNd itS Not wOrth to End bEcoz of it.. At least iF he totally understand my meaning.. and still insist or wat..then i reali nth to sae
bEcoZ oF my mSn Nick..cAuse sO mUch thIng..hE thOught i duN trUst hIm.. i aT firSt dUn wAN exPlain ..beCoz sAt aFternOon we jUz haB a aRgurement aBout mE bEing lAte .. bEcoz my gUitar eNd laTe..thEN he wAit agar 1 hR.. then juz maKe up..theN he aSk me wat tat mEan.. i sCare he will upset again..when i mention daniel box..bEcoz tat mSn nIck is agar saeing abOut hIm..so ddnt sae..thEn he sae i dun trust him.. bEcoz i dun wan tell him..i eXplain.. but still.. he like still got misunderstand me..when i was confused.. does it mean cheating on him? i dun think so.. but he think so..now.. i know the answer..i will gif him all the time he need..to think..he sae he juz need time..i juz duN wAn to eNd nOw..bEcoz of mIsunderstanding.. its totally wasted and i dun wan... if reali no feeling or wat.. i will gladly let go..but now no... hOpe..reali.. he will think well..
thanKz aH gOu..althought she studying..but then.. sms her..ddnt reali sae much..but ask her can go toromow steamboat ma..she sae probably not..but then..told her wana to toK..about me n him..thiNk she sEnse sOmething wRong..sms awhIle..then stop le..she aso studying her maths paper 2.. she been sleep less than 5 hr every dae .. see todae if she tired.. then duN wan meet her le..but reali.. wan someone to tok.. mAYbe go marine there "san san xin" aso better than at hMe..she toromow no paper..think can make it lorz..maybe will go n meet her after marine todae.. tHen sHe sEnd me a touching Sms.."we might be busy wif our stuff,but no matter wat i'll overcome any waves wif u..Even if the sky drops, there's still us.."thaNkz foR everything..bEing there though juz awhile wif mE..whEn i nEed sOmeone to liSten.. i greatly appreciate..
feelin eyes so heavy n sore.. later go hme rest awhile first b4 going to meet them at 6.30 ba..hazi..whEn will it gEt bEtter..
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Memories that fades
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