Monday, March 14, 2005
bEing sO loNg sInce i laSt wRitten mY eNtries.. dAes bEen sO sWeet wIthoUt aNy uNhaPpiNEss.. fEel like reAli thoSe born oN rAbBit reAli cUrse sIa ( tHiS yEar rAbbit dE pPle doWn oN lUck mA) aLot Of thIngs beIng hAppeNing aRound.. sOmetiMe uNtil i fEel kInda bLissfUl 4 wAteVer i haB..sChOol..hUbby..eTc..
dAes will paSsed v faSt..sOon..hubBy wIll be iN nS.. mM.. haB to cHerisH thE timE nOw and gEt uSed sEeing lEss Of hIs fAce :x thEse dAes tOking qUite oFten aBout hiS nS thiNgy.. like wHethEr hE wAna sIgn On. As a fiRe fIghter bEcOz wIll haB hIgHer sAlaRy.. jUz thInking Of saVing $$ 4 thE fUtuRe.. bRother saE thEre v toUgh.. aSk hIm dUn sIgn aS tat.. mM.. i leAve tHe deCisioN to hIm.. jUz bE saFe... :)
jUz got hMe not Long fRom cOnsOling oNe Of mY fRiend fRom hEartbReak. Juz eNded a reLatioNShip,wHich aLthought more thaN a mOnth But haB a sWeet pEriod thRough theSe dAes.. rEasOn foR bReakUp iS nOt bEcOz nO more fEeling bUt jUz tAt mAy nOt bE aBle to cOpe wiTh hIs sTudiEs whIch hE priority As fiRst. mY frIend dUn bLame hIm, jUz tAt bRood about thE prOmisEs hE mAde, thE amount of eFforts shE pUt iN, thE nuMber oF "wEi qU" sHe Put Up wiF hiS faMily n fRiends, thE aLot n alot... aNd i jUz sEe hEr kEep cRying n cRying tiLl hErs tEArs rUn dRy.. i duNo wAt eLse i cAn sAe le.. But i jUz cAn sAe, thIs gUy iS a gOod gUy. jUz tat mAybe thEy mEet At thE wRong tiMe. mAybe iF thEy mEet After hE fiNish hIS stUdies,thiNk thEy wiLl be one oF the hAppieSt cOUple wIthin mY aTtaChed frIends. pRomISes oNli laSt tAt Long, wHen the rElationsHip iS sTill tHere. oNce iTs gOne, prOmisEs sEem aLl lIke liEs givEn bY the oTher pArty iN the paSt.. wHo Know wAt wIll hapPen thAt thEy May gEt baCk toGether? 1 thIng 4 sUre, i dOubt my tHis fRiend wIll Be gEtting aTtached wIthin theSe fEw yeaRs bEcOz sHe aLready giVen uP hOpe oF haBing hEr "mR rIght".. its juz a aCcumlAted Of heArtbReak thAt sHe gOt, wHich shE reAli fEel tAt dEsPair in fInding "hIm"..
kiNda sTreSs Up wIf mY oNcoMing sEcOnd yEar pRojEct wHich i dUno 4 wHy.. wEnt 4 the bRiefting toDae in sChool..sEem gOing to bE quite tiMe cOnsUming.. tiNking of intErviEwing mAybe eVelyn? jUz wAna to fiNish mY project oN dOing a pRofEssioNal.. wHIch i tAke sHe cAn hElp to cOntributeS aLot of eXpEriEnces eTc.. haVent sEttle oN aNyOne.. mAybe jUz a maNAger wIll dO.. hEachAche..jUz a pResSure i aDded Onto mE..
wAn to eNjoy a nO-pResSure,sTreSs life.. No school..wOrk... jUz do wAtevEr thiNgs i wAn.. At aNy pace i lIke.. iTs jUz a drEam.. tat wIll be fUlfIll mAybe... whEn i reTired? :x tAt a long wAy doWn the roAd...
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Memories that fades
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